Aar Jay and all.

Whoever you are, reading this, you need to know one thing. I consider that one thing as the biggest achievement of my life and that is meeting SRK. If you don’t know, go check my page RJ Vidya and see the photo.

Well, that in place, that photo is the context of this. After I put that photo up, I got 35 death wishes, 56 hate messages, 37846827361 silent murders planned. Yeah, I get it. I would've done that too if any of my friends met SRK. Apart from that, I meet a lot of celebs. It is a part of my job. And I know each one of you who follow my updates think I have an amazing and chilled out job.

Well, let me break it to you. NO.
This post is to tell you how it feels to be an RJ. What goes into being that and what goes into making my job amazing.

I have timings. 9:30-6:15. Yes, I do. No, I don’t do just my show and go home. No I don’t talk what comes into my head at that time. I have a responsible job. People are listening to me, and they believe me. I do the movie show, and if I say Rajnikanth is acting in Golmaal 4, there are people who will believe it. THAT is why I work for so long. I write my script, recheck what I say is right and then on the show say it in the style I want to.

For all those who think people who talk a lot can be RJs, you’re welcome to try once. Please.
Being a radio jockey is not all about talking. It is about talking the right thing at the right time in the right sense. We have a huge pressure on our shoulders that a city is listening to us and out there are people who think we are right. Out there are people who want to be us one day, just like I did at a point in my life.

Every single day, sounding like you just saw a unicorn dancing, is not easy. There are times when all we want to do is tear the mic, throw the headphones and cry in a corner. And yet, what do you hear? Happiness. Excitement close to a 3 year old who ate his/her first ice cream, For we know that there is a minimum of one person in the entire city who will smile at least once listening to what we say and that drives us.

The endless releases week after week, constant reminders by boss, running around the PROs, fixing the date, meeting all kinds of people, throwing the fake smile around like it is confetti and finally getting the interview done after a lot of awkward moments with the celeb. Yeah, all that goes into the fancy photos you see on my Facebook wall.

Let me come to the fun part. I don’t sit in front of a computer all day and work for clients or feel lost all day. I chose this. I love being an RJ. I love the adrenaline that comes with being one. I love the way my heart beats out of nervousness every time I meet a celeb.  Yes, I love it, but I’m human too. And I get bored or tired of stuff.
I’ve got higher authorities too. I cannot do what comes to my mind, cannot talk what I want to on radio, cannot ask the celebrities what their dog’s name is.

Okay? Stop asking me to die cos I met your favourite celebrity. Stop asking me to not feel tired or bored of office as I have the best job ever.
Maybe at that point, I would’ve loved just eating a piece of cake with a friend and not go meet that ‘overhyped as they can act’ human.

If this sounded like a rant to you, read it again. This was just a message to all the people who think I’m getting paid for doing nothing and chilling with stars. I needed to explain this as I did not want people thinking it is easy here. The radio industry, in Hyderabad at least, is already infected with such irresponsible gits, it does not need more nuts that think they can make it just because they have the gift of gab.

Go now, and follow your dream. Only then you can blog stuff like this. 

From lyf to life

At a point we all want it, at a point we hate it.
There are days we cry about it. There are days we realize the importance of it.
We learn through it. We unlearn through it. We are taught about it. We teach it.
We see others doing it and wonder if we're doing it right. Then we think we're right and tell people how not to do it. We look at others who have done it right and think we will get there someday. We don't realize they haven't stopped doing it. We set standards, norms, preconceptions about how to do it. We think the way we do it is right. We find faults with others ways of doing it. No matter what, we can't stop doing it. We just cannot.

Everybody does it.
So have I.

From spelling it as lyf to Life.

Growing up. Everybody does it. And continues to do so. 

Confessions of a movie buff.

Life is full of highs and lows and even movies are. Each emotion expressed, each scene, could have been true, and really felt by someone. Even if the movie is terrible, I tend to connect to the characters and relate to them in every possible way. I laugh with them in their happy scenes, and weep with them when they are depressed. The movie is taken way too seriously by me and i have a particular favorite character in every movie which i completely involve and see the movie from their point of view. Mostly it is the hero's. If u ask me "Who is your favorite hero?", i wouldn't be able to answer that, as i like something in everyone. It's like asking a first ranker, what is your favorite subject. The student would definitely like something in each subject.

In this process of connecting with the movie, for three hours, i lose myself. I forget who I am, and everything that's happening in my life. I forget the bad things that happened to me, even the good. Movies are entirely a different world to me, and i live one of the character's life for those three hours. Stress busters, they are. The most happiest moments for me are when i enter the hall, first day first show without knowing what's waiting in there. I prefer those first day first shows as i don't get the review by then and i can have a complete own opinion about the movie. The depressing part is walking out of the hall after it's over. Even after i walk out, i wish that i would exchange my life with one of those people with beautiful and happy one's shown in all movies. Not that mine is any less, but change is always welcome. As long as my memory permits, i have walked midway out of two movies only. I hated those, and found no point sitting in them. Surprisingly, those both movies were received well by the people and went on to be hits. I could not connect with a single character in the movie, maybe that was the reason. I could go on about movies forever.

Movies=happiness, for people like me, who lose themselves completely in them.

we cannot start afresh can we?

its 11:30 pm and im actually not asleep. i dont know why i blog only when im in such a confused state of mind.

Well. I turned 19 last week. and had the best 19 yrs of life anybody could wish for. but ryt now i feel like running away from evrything and start everything fresh. i kno running away isnt possible but is starting afresh possible? we have so many emotional bonds. we hurt people, we get hurt. we forgive, we don't forget. people don't forgive nor do they forget.

Life changes so drastically. last year this tym i had the bestest friends life could give me. ryt now, yeah we all are frends still but at each corner of the world. or geetha, who stays ryt here and has become distant but she's there for me whenever i need her. i feel selfish.

And i want to change all that. change the way things happened. and start new.

We are so engrossed in this stupid race of who's better than whom that when we actually sit back and think everybody in the corner of their heart think they need to start afresh. not to correct their mistakes but to see how life would have been if they did things the other way..

I wish i had a chance. not to go back to the beginning but to start a new one.

LiFE

after a very long time im actually posting. and first time im posting without a calm mind. right now im bloody pissed. so u might not like the post. so dont read it.

life. whats it about? choices? chances? what? no one has an idea. i thought life is all about how you want it. but its not. it really feels good to say i live my life my way. but actually thats not the truth. no one can live as they want. agreed to the point its your life. but then so many people and so many things made it. your friends,parents,school,college,money....all this makes life. its just we're born alone and in the end we die alone. i completely disagree with the phrase"live for yourself coz in the end u die alone". even if we try we cant live for ourselves. even for that we need help from others. ur decisions in life wont affect only you. affects all the people close to you. thats why the 'i' in my title is not capitalised. u play a very small role in ur life-you just live it,thats all.

god knows why i posted this. though i cant say its my life il do whatever i want, il say its my blog and i post whatever i want.

p.s- read my post "wake up vid" to notice the change in my opinions.

back.

it took me 5 months. and guess i'm still not out of it. i've not been posting since the last 5 months. to be true i've lost my creativity. i'm not able to write. not at all. what's wrong with me i donno. well, this post is crap. dont even read it. i just wanted to post something after this long. hope il be able to continue posting. some gud stuff.

Less aefforestation,More dafforestation..

Dafforestation might sound new to you guys.This term was coined out by me... and this post is all about it.. according to my definition,dafforestation means campaigning,publicising about saving the environment and actually nothing is saved there..
All these save forests.go green,save the tigers campaigns...where do they lead to?? in fact,who cares where they lead to?

The ozone layer is depleting.So what? It definitely doesnt bother people in any way.. Save the tigers.. If the child passes the board exams,their shame is saved, and this is what we care about. Life has not become practical. It is practical from the time we're born. Everybody is far too busy with their own lives. Whether trees are planted or not,schools and offices are open. Whether tigers are saved or not,protests for telangana are going on..

I agree people are contributing to campaigns. By signing up online,showing it off on face book. Turn off the computer,forget about it. A few people might go further and conduct programmes. Im not saying small help doesnt count. I agree a drop of water makes the ocean,but not when gallons of it is evaporating. A drop compared to the ocean is a joke.Even you know it.

Whoever is doing whatever to save the environment,im not discouraging you. nor am i encouraging the others who are minding their own business to do so..This is my personal view on whatever is happening nowadays. And i know dafforestation will continue and maybe sumwhere even im a part of it..
Jai dafforestation,Jai Jai dafforestation..!!