we cannot start afresh can we?

its 11:30 pm and im actually not asleep. i dont know why i blog only when im in such a confused state of mind.

Well. I turned 19 last week. and had the best 19 yrs of life anybody could wish for. but ryt now i feel like running away from evrything and start everything fresh. i kno running away isnt possible but is starting afresh possible? we have so many emotional bonds. we hurt people, we get hurt. we forgive, we don't forget. people don't forgive nor do they forget.

Life changes so drastically. last year this tym i had the bestest friends life could give me. ryt now, yeah we all are frends still but at each corner of the world. or geetha, who stays ryt here and has become distant but she's there for me whenever i need her. i feel selfish.

And i want to change all that. change the way things happened. and start new.

We are so engrossed in this stupid race of who's better than whom that when we actually sit back and think everybody in the corner of their heart think they need to start afresh. not to correct their mistakes but to see how life would have been if they did things the other way..

I wish i had a chance. not to go back to the beginning but to start a new one.